The first episode of Ariana Grande’s YouTube docuseries Dangerous Woman Diaries dropped Thursday and this gay just can’t.
The 27-minute video takes us behind the scenes as the up-and-coming pop legend made her latest album Sweetener, recorded music videos, and performed at the MTV Video Music Awards earlier this year. But just in case you don’t have that much free time to spare, I’ve done a quick recap for you:
The episode, titled after her song “the light is coming,” starts 18 months before the release of the album. Ariana is ponytail-less in what looks like a green room and she's just like us, wearing pajama pants that are too big for her but committing to the look nonetheless. Placing headphones on each of her friends and dancers, she’s giddy about their unfolding reactions to her new music. They’re emphatically nodding their heads and smiling ear-to-ear in approval. Apparently, they’re always the first to hear her new music so we can blame them for all the tracks we skip.
Next, we’re in the studio with her and Sweetener producer Pharrell as they jam out to “get well soon.” This footage is spliced with Ariana’s reflections, confessional-style except she’s in bed with her two right hand gays. We find out then that this is her favorite album to date. Same, girl and I can finally stop calling her Mariah Lite.
And if you were trying to figure out a way to describe the 90s-inspired sound Ariana leaned into for this album, “rainbow clouds” is what they were going for.
After some behind-the-scenes shots of her “the light is coming” video shoot, we cut to a montage of “god is a woman” video tidbits. When it settles, Ariana’s projecting her voice to everyone on set gagging over the fact that Madonna — yes, that one — provided not one, but seven voiceover takes for her audio cameo in the video.
Dave Meyers, the music video director, captured the apparent importance of the moment when he said: “Madonna carried the struggle on her shoulders to put out what Ari’s able to put out now.”
After another series of set montages, we’re at a slumber party that Ariana is throwing for a select group of teenage fans to hear the album first. She says this is a necessary part of her process because it’s fan feedback — from kids who will obviously tell her what she wants to hear — that’s most important. It’s market research at its finest.
Then, we’re at rehearsals for Ariana’s now-iconic VMAs performance where she recreated The Last Supper, with Jesus as a black woman named Patience. This is what icons are made of! (She came up with the idea, she said, while running on the treadmill.)
The day of, we see Ariana warming up in a vanity while her makeup is getting done. If my spidey senses are correct, it looks like she’s streaming her own single on Spotify as an accompaniment track. Gotta get that no.1 by any means necessary. When she finally sees Patience, aka Jesus, Ariana second-guessed her own look. A perpetual mood, because while I love a good leotard… where is Tina Knowles when you need her?
And to wrap the episode, we see Ari asking a very important favor of her dancers:
“Ladies, I have a question. Can you do me a solid? I know one of yall has a tampon.” Relatable content.
A new episode of Dangerous Woman Diaries will be available on Grande’s Youtube page each Thursday for the low price of Free.99. And if you just can’t wait, you can binge all four right now via a $12 a month youtube Premium subscription.