In a new interview on Instagram singer-songwriter Sam Smith has come out as nonbinary. The revelation came after reading the stories of other nonconforming individuals.
“I recently was reading stories about people who have come out as genderqueer and nonbinary,” Smith told Jameela Jamil on the first episode of her new show I Weigh Interviews. “I’ve always had a war between my body and my mind and my body about …”
“How you define yourself?” Jamil, offered, prompting him to finish the thought.
“Yes, because I do think like a woman sometimes in my head,” Smith continued. “I’ve sometimes sat and questioned, do I want a sex change? It’s something I still think about: Do I want to? I don’t think it is. When I saw the nonbinary, genderqueer, and I read into it, and I heard these people speaking, I was like ‘fuck, that is me.’” The revelation comes after similar statements in 2017 when the star told Sunday Times “I feel just as much woman as I am man.”
Jamil asked him to explain, what the label meant for him personally. “Nonbinary, genderqueer is that you do not identify in a gender, you are just you,” he said. “You are a mixture of all different things, you are your own special creation. That’s how I take it: I’m not male or female, I think I flow somewhere in between. It’s all on the spectrum.”
Finding one’s own identity through reading about someone else’s underscores the importance of representation. Courtney Act, who came out as genderfluid in 2015, tells a similar story of coming to terms with their gender, after being initially introduced to the notion of gender fluidity by Chaz Bono.
For Smith though, the revelation has assisted in coming to terms with other aspects of his life.
“I’ve always been very free in terms of thinking about sexuality, so I’ve just tried to change that into my thoughts on gender as well,” he said. “And that’s been involved my relationship with my body because I had breasts when I was 11 years-old.” Earlier in the interview he revealed that his mom had taken him to the doctors as a pre-teen who found that his body stored excessive amounts of estrogen in his chest. Smith underwent liposuction in attempt to remedy that.
“I have very feminine body,” he said. “When I move, when I have sex with men, it’s very feminine.” And though he resented that growing up, he’s now come to find that’s fine.