"People aren't honest about the horrors of fame. The downsides are so overwhelming that, for me, there is no payoff. I'm a 34-year-old woman living a 10-year-old's dream. Now my dream is to write songs for others, to have a baby, to have a routine. The absence of routine is destructive, and the constant highs and lows so unhealthy -- that's why I want a normal job. I want to be who I was before all this. After this record, I'm going to retrain as a dog masseuse."