Ariana Grande, the MVP of 2018, was honored by Billboard on Thursday night in New York City as its Woman of the Year, and everyone's unproblematic fave gave an extremely relatable, emotional speech about the whirlwind of a year she's had. This year, she said,"has been one of the best years of my career and the worst of my life." Wow, I felt that.
"I'm not saying that for sympathy," said Grande. "I'm just saying that because I think a lot of people would look at someone in my position right now...and think, 'She's really got her shit together,' Ya know? Like, 'She's really on it.' Like, 'She's got it all.' I do, but as far as my personal life goes, I really have no idea what the fuck I'm doing so yeah, it's been a very conflicting one."
"I just want to say if you're someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter's gonna bring, you're not alone in that," Grande continued, struggling not to get emotional. "Ew, I'm not gonna cry that's really stupid... You're not alone in that. I'm really looking forward to embracing whatever happens; whatever comes my way."
"I look forward to hopefully learning to give some of the love and forgiveness that I've given away so frivolously and easily to men in the past to myself hopefully this year," she concluded. "I have everything I've ever dreamt of having and as of late I've discovered that it's the things I've always had and the people I've always had that still make me the happiest."
Grande also performed her groundbreaking hit "thank u, next" at the ceremony in what she described on Instagram as her "loofah of the year" dress.
Grande was introduced by the legendary Patti Labelle, who told her to "sing like that little white-black girl that you are," causing Grande to nearly face plant onstage.