Johnny and Sebastian


By Editors

We were among the first couples brought inside the City Clerk's office at 8:30 a.m. We were quickly processed by one of the clerks who carefully went over the details of our license application and then ushered us into a small room where we were greeted by more press and by the Honorable Judge George Silver. As Judge Silver spoke, everything suddenly became still. Despite all the commotion that was brewing outside, all I could hear was the sound of the Judge's voice. He took a moment to recognize the importance of the occasion and shared that he too was in awe of what was happening in the state of New York that day. His words hit a nerve, and I couldn't help but tear up from all the anticipation that had been welling up inside me that morning. As Judge Silver concluded his remarks and pronounced us legally married, Sebastian and I kissed and walked outside the Clerk's office hand in hand. Though the moment was so full of happiness for the both of us, I suddenly couldn't help but feel a little bittersweet about what had just happened. Yes, being legally married in the State of New York was momentous for both of us; and yes, I was overwhelmed with joy; but, having lived in Manhattan for most of my life, I had to remind myself that the wondrous spirit of my own city on this day did not mirror the state of affairs for gay couples in most of the rest of the country. In so many places, gay couples like Sebastian and me, have struggled for years in the fight for marriage equality and are still far from reaching their goal. New York took a big leap forward on July 24, but 44 states still discriminate against lesbian and gay couples in marriage. We must keep up the fight so that everyone can experience the joy we felt that day.

And that, of course, brings me to the most difficult part of celebrating our marriage that day. As we stepped out of the building to the cheering crowds, we knew that the "Defense of Marriage Act" still prevented us from feeling truly equal. Our marriage is denied recognition by the federal government, a fact that seems so obviously unconstitutional and un-American, but also has a direct impact on us because it prevents me from sponsoring Sebastian for a green card as my spouse. Although we are fortunate for now that Sebastian is able to remain in the United States because of his employment-based visa, we also know there are tens of thousands of other gay and lesbian bi-national couples who do not have this luxury. It saddened me to think that despite having reached this amazing milestone, there was still a long road ahead. Nevertheless, this realization does not diminish the fact that the events of last Sunday were surreal and unforgettable. The sense of love and community that emanated from that place left us speechless and feeling more than blessed.

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