Its a humid and breezy afternoon in late March on the sandy finger of Key Biscayne, Fla., where the worlds top tennis players have gathered for the $6.2 million NASDAQ-100 Open, the most prestigious tournament after the four Grand Slam events. Outside the players lounge, the circus-like atmosphere of the circuit is in full swing. Players, agents, coaches, and hangers-on eat, talk on cell phones, zone out with headsets, and add to the general backstage din. One of the womens favorites, openly lesbian French player Amlie Mauresmo, who at press time ranked number 6 in the world, strides over and plops down on a garden chair just outside the enclosed lounge. Her thick brown hair is pulled back in a ponytail, and her sleeveless top prominently displays an angel tattoo on her left shoulder.
Her handshake is firm, and her bright eyes beam. Everybody can do whatever they wantthats my message, she starts off, setting up the conversation on her terms, the same way this powerful, all-court player sets up points in her matches. On court and off, she doesnt sit back and anticipate.
Mauresmo has agreed to talk with Out about her personal life as well as her tennissomething she has done in the European press but only in limited fashion in the United States. On first impression, the 2002 Wimbledon and U.S. Open semifinalist is everything youve heard and read about: sexy, affable, open, direct, humorous. But theres also something else in those inviting green eyes: the sangfroid and determination that come from choosing to live the globe-trotting, pressure-packed life of a top professional athlete as an openly gay womana decision Mauresmo made earlier in her career, more unapologetically than anyone before her.
Although her life has settled down more quickly, perhaps, than Martina Navratilovas or Billie Jean Kings, Mauresmo acknowledges that being an out lesbian in womens tennis is still not as mundane as, say, a two-fisted backhand. When asked if she thought there would be more openly gay professional athletes anytime soon, she replies, I would love that day to be today. Apparently [being out] is still not good for some people. People accept it, or they dont accept it, and then I dont talk to them, and thats it.
Its been four-plus years since the athletic teenager with the gorgeous one-handed backhand arrived on the sceneand proceeded to create oneat the 1999 Australian Open. In Melbourne that year, Mauresmo, an unseeded 19-year-old, reached her first Grand Slam final, dispatching world number 1 Lindsay Davenport in the semifinals before falling to Martina Hingis. Mauresmos remarkable run, however, was overshadowed by her telling a French journalist that she was gay and traveling with her girlfriend. A media storm ensued, including juvenile taunts and homophobic remarks from her peers. Davenport said Mauresmos shoulders looked huge and that it was like playing a guy, while Hingis sneeringly called the young French player half a man. (Davenport later apologized for her comments; Hingis never has.)
The old-style gay plotline might have gone something like this: Player comes out, suffers media and public backlash, loses endorsements, but privately triumphs in newfound personal freedom. Actually, the opposite occurred. Mauresmo was mostly embraced by fans (particularly in her home country) who were put off by the insensitivity of her peers; her sponsors stood by her; and she became a huge celebrity almost overnight. But her game and personal life unraveled during the next couple of years. Her ranking fell, her stormy relationship with restaurant owner Sylvie Bourdon dissolved, and she found herself further estranged from her family, who were already upset by her private coming-out to them several months before. She later changed coaches and suffered through various injuries, including career-threatening cartilage damage in her right knee last fall.
Its not easy to handle when youre 19 and you have things coming up at your face like this, she remembers, her jaw tightening and her ready smile turning suddenly serious. At that time it was tough. It hurt. Now, at 24, Mauresmo is finally on her gameboth on court and off. The stylish, versatile player had her best year as a pro in 2002, reaching a career-high number 4 in the rankings while winning two titles and pushing her total career prize money earnings to more than $3.1 million. She has a new love in her life, Pascale Arribe, a former high-ranking national player from France. The rift with her family is mending, and she has renewed multimillion-dollar endorsement contracts with companies like Nike and Dunlop. Despite a four-month layoff following knee surgery, Mauresmo has picked up where she left off in 2002, becoming the only woman to beat both Serena and Venus Williams this season, winning one title and reaching the finals of two other tournaments.
I think its a life thing, the deeply tanned player explains in slightly accented but near-perfect English. Everybody has, year after year, more experience and knows a little bit more about life. Im 24, so Im not saying I know everything, but you know, I just improve, and I see things around me, and maybe Im more in charge of myself, more responsible for what Im doing.
Among the tough lessons of the past few years is that personal and public lives are intertwined. When youre asking yourself lots of questions, you dont concentrate so much on tennis and youre more emotional on the court at some points, she says. And when I went through all the struggling in my mind, when I had that done, I was stronger on the court. A lesson well learned: Private happiness affects performance, whether you are straight or gay.
The emotional turbulence of the past few years hasnt eroded Mauresmos most engaging quality: her frankness. This was evident, of course, in the confident, joyous, and almost reckless way she unveiled her sexualityopenly exchanging hugs and kisses with Bourdon in Australia after upsetting Davenport. She also displayed a candor and joie de vivre about who she is that stood in stark contrast to the often troubled and ambivalent comings-out of yesteryear. Tennis legends Martina and Billie Jean were both dragged out of the closet, first by media innuendo and later by high-profile palimony suits. Navratilova did finally embrace her sexuality late in her career, but she claims that doing so cost her millions in endorsements. TV tennis commentator Mary Carillo says Mauresmos decision to come out was differentand much bolder. What Martina did was brave and crazy, but she was at the height of her power and always operating under this huge financial net that she herself wove, Carillo says, referring to the $20 million the nine-time Wimbledon singles champ earned on court. With Amlie, she was young. She hadnt really declared herself as much on the tennis court as she had with her sexuality. I think she was taking a bigger risk.
In retrospect, Mauresmo says she would have come out differently, in a smoother way. The disparaging comments from some of her peers, the media mayhem, and the sudden celebrity took their toll. In addition to tabloid coverage, she was depicted as a broad-shouldered, masculine figure on the French TV program Les Guignols de lInfo, which parodies current events using puppets. At first Mauresmo naively hoped the brouhaha would subside quickly. She answered media demands but felt her words often got twisted. After a while she simply stopped talking and shut down. I wasnt realizing that it was a big thing, she recalls a bit wistfully. I came home, and I didnt want to talk to anybody. Still, she is unburdened by second thoughts. I dont regret it, she says. Now I feel great having done it.
Pioneers almost always pay a price, however, as Mauresmo was to learn. Soon after her big wins in Australia, her game went into a tailspin as she strained to cope with her newfound celebrity. Bourdon, who had no tennis background, even took over coaching duties from time to timeand sometimes lashed out at Mauresmo when she performed poorly. Floundering, she couldnt turn to her family either.
Mauresmo, the younger of two children, grew up in a comfortable home on the outskirts of Paris. Her father, Francis, is a chemical engineer, and her mother, Franoise, is a homemaker. Mauresmo decided at age 4 that she wanted to be a tennis pro after watching fellow countryman Yannick Noah win the French Open in 1983. By age 17, in 1996, she was the junior world champion and destined for stardom.
Around the same age, Mauresmo became aware of her same-sex attraction. She wrestled with it for a couple of years but finally accepted herselfa big first step for any person, gay or straight, she says. The second step is to let everybody know that its no big deal, she says. So she told her parents and older brother a few months before Australia because she had fallen in love with Bourdon and planned to move in with her.
How did I do it? Probably not the right way, Mauresmo, voice rising, says with a nervous laugh. She offers no other details. But I dont know if, for parents, there is a right way, she adds. Her sudden fame after the Australian open exacerbated an already tense situation, and her mother, father, and brother broke off contact as they struggled to accept her very public lesbianism. It was not too good, she says curtly of their reaction.
Even as the media fueled her emotional roller coaster and her family withdrew, the French public rallied behind Mauresmo. She was often approached in the street by all types, from children to grandparents, who congratulated her on her courage. She received 3,000 to 4,000 letters, all but a handful of which were supportive. It makes you proud to think that people, in fact, are not so closed-minded, she says.
But the decline in her play prompted questions about whether she would fulfill the promise she showed in Australia and whether she could handle the pressure of being one of the worlds most famous lesbian athletes. Ultimately, her relationship with Bourdon started to crack under the strain.
Mauresmo dismisses the notion that her relationship with Bourdon, more than a decade her senior, crumbled under the weight of the publicity surrounding their love affair. It was more personal, more inside, she says, tapping her heart. I didnt feel it was good anymore. We got to a point, and that was it.
Its no secret that Bourdon, by most accounts described as a dominating and controlling personality, enjoyed the limelight cast by Mauresmo and made every effort to soak it up. But her overbearing nature also clashed with the fast-maturing and headstrong Mauresmo. For a while, maybe, it was good for Amlie, says Philippe Bouin, tennis writer for leading French sports daily LEquipe. Bourdon pushed her; she wanted to be famous. But she also made a lot of enemies. She wanted to control Amlie, but Amlie is also a strong character.
Bourdon admits her big mouth and directness didnt make her popular in tennis circles and that at times she was overly involved in Mauresmos life. But she says if she was viewed as pushy or domineering, it was only because she loved the easily influenced Mauresmo.
Maybe it was my fault because I was taking care of Amlie, says the 35-year-old restaurateur, who now works and lives in Saint-Tropez in the south of France. Its true that I was kind of protecting her, so its easy to say I was a bad person or like a bodyguard. Sometimes Amlie can be weak, and I was trying to be strong. But I did it with all my love.
On tour Mauresmo says she never had one problem with other players, coaches, or parents related to her being out. At the same time, the rush to support her has been muted at best, even from her lesbian peers. Of course, the jealous and competitive world of womens pro tennis has never been long on camaraderie, a situation exacerbated by the fact that many players are still teenagers, less mature, and often chaperoned by overprotective parents and coaches.
Everybody can live their life like they want to do, says Belgiums Justine Henin-Hardenne, the 2003 French Open champion. I have a lot of respect for Amlie because shes a nice person. Its never been a problem, adds French number 2 Nathalie Dechy, who has known and competed against Mauresmo since she was 10 and considers her a close friend. What she feels inside is her business. She likes a girl; I like a boy. Its no difference.
But make no mistake, homophobia is still alive and well on the Womens Tennis Association Tour. Image-conscious WTA officials still cringe when the topic of lesbianism is brought up. Fearful of outing someone by association, Mauresmo declined to name her friends on tour. Asked if other lesbians were supportive, even in private, she says, Not especially. Nor have any followed her lead by coming out. Mauresmo claims she doesnt ask herself why this is, but the question hangs like a lob waiting to be smashed. In truth, she has been able to skirt the economic pitfalls of being out in part because of her striking looks, feminine appeal, and European background. In many E.U. countries, gay sexuality is simply not the lightning rod for controversy that it is in the United States.
But clearly, when playerseven Europeansare still afraid to come out, and parents still display overt hostility, like the father of top-10 player Jelena Dokic saying last year he would kill himself if his daughter were gay, it shows that sexual tolerance in sports has a ways to go. The climate for gay and lesbian athletes is better today than it ever has been, agrees Donna Lopiano, chief executive officer of the Womens Sports Foundation, but thats not saying much.
Mauresmo didnt say much either following her 99 pronouncement, keeping largely silent about her personal life as she extricated herself from the difficulties that befell her in 2000. But by the end of 2001, she had returned to the top 10, finishing the year ranked number 9. She even got advice from another trailblazer: You did the right thing, and your life will be much easier from now on, Navratilova told her.
Her personal life also started to turn around. After breaking off with Bourdon, Mauresmo met the 40-ish Arribe, who, by most accounts, is better equipped to deal with the rigors of Mauresmos professional life. Weve been together for more than two years now, and its great, says Mauresmo, who met Arribe at a tennis tournament in France. Im in love, she told Paris Match magazine this spring. Ive been lucky to meet Pascale, whos made me feel strong and beautiful. For someone like me, who is never stable, it has made me serene. Tennis insiders say Arribe understands the sport and is comfortable playing a supporting role, though she does travel to tournaments occasionally. Mauresmo has also started to mend the breach with her parents, who reportedly showed up at some of her matches in Parisaccompanied by Arribewhen she returned to the circuit after a four-month layoff this winter. They are starting to accept it, she says.
Of course, the acid test of acceptance is the business worlds response. While Navratilova and King both suffered financially from their reluctant outings, Mauresmo remains a highly marketable athlete, especially in Europe. Shes a great athlete, and regardless of her sexuality we love her for what she is, says Nikes Riccardo Colombini, global director of tennis sports marketing for the giant U.S. shoe and apparel company. Her popularity in France is such that during the French Open she was honored at the unveiling of her replica in Pariss wax museum. She is the only tennis player depicted there.
Mauresmo is confident of her commercial viability. [Companies] see that I have an image. Gay society is also good business, with a lot of money, a lot of people, so theyre not crazy, she says of her sponsors.
With her peace of mind restored and her confidence returned, the talk these days has shifted from the bedroom to her backhand. The smooth right-hander with the looping strokes is one of the few women who can serve and volley as well as smack winners off both wings from the baseline. A deft volleyer who covers the court well, Mauresmo also has the strength and variety to win on any surface. Most experts believe the 5-foot-9 Frenchwoman is one of the few players capable of challenging the Williams sisters stranglehold on the top rankings. Shes strong and fast and smart, says veteran columnist and tennis historian Bud Collins. I think she has the potential to win any major.
Whether she does so will depend on how her body holds up and if she can integrate her new aggressive style. Both have presented challenges. She missed Januarys Australian Open while recovering from knee surgery but made an emotional comeback in February at a big indoor event in Paris. In addition to beating both Williams sisters this spring, she advanced to the quarterfinals of the French Open for the first time in nine triesa measure of success for the sometimes emotionally fragile player who has struggled to perform her best under increasingly soaring Gallic hopes.
Mauresmo also realizes that the events of the past few years have made her important beyond the world of tennis. Im proud if I could help people feel better in their lives and maybe help them say things to their parents or whomever, she says of her role as an openly gay athlete. I would just love that question [of ones sexual orientation] not to be asked in a few years. Were all human, and we have our qualities, our good and bad points. Personally, I feel we are on the right path. I feel like maybe Im in a privileged world, being in the tennis field, and I never hear about the bad things. But I really feel that society is growing and is more open.